Being Inlove♥

 Being in love is one of the most amazing and unique feelings out there, lucky for me i have experienced it. The person who i want to be with lives far away from me. He has always been there and he has also become a part of me. Ive known him since i was 5..hes my everything now.I have had my heart-broken before..And Ive learned that if you don't risk it all, you don't get anything worth fighting for in return. . All i want is to be with him, to wake up every morning next to him and be able to whisper I love You in his ear. To scream out to the world that he stole my heart, to hold his hand when I'm scared, to kiss him softly and feel his warm body against mine. My desire is to spend my life with him, to be his forever..to have a future with him..To make him my one and only. And on those cold & rainy nights, I want him to make me his..to remind me of how we become one♥. The first time he kissed me..it felt like i was being kissed for the first time ever..i felt butterflies in my tummy, my hands were cold..i was blushing. It all felt new to me..he made me feel so secure, so safe..like no matter what happened..we would could make it better..as long as we were together. The way he held my hand, and stared at my body from head to toe, made me feel wanted by him. Now..things are so hard..he says the distance is killing us, all I want is to know he loves me as much as i love him </3 I have never wanted someone so bad, i have never dreamed about  a man so much. He makes me want to dance around the room, he makes me want to sing, laugh and love him even more.. If only he knew how much he means to me..how i wish he were here with me.If only he loved me too..That night, when i packed my bags, tears filled my eyes. I wanted to stay, i wanted to be there with him. I never wanted to leave...If he would of asked me to stay, i would of. But he didn't. We talked all night long, I repeatedly said I love you, hoping he would beg me to be his. Then he described how good it felt to be with me again, how it felt so right. I never wanted to say good-bye, i never wanted us to have our last kiss. That night, when he said good night, i felt like it was all over. As if I was never going to know about him ever again. I love everything about him. The way he wears his glasses, how he makes me smile, the way he walks, the way he talks, the way he says my name. I love how his warm hands lock against mine..I love how he holds me by the waist, how he is always there for me, how he tells me were going to be all right. How every time i feel like crying he gives me a reason not to. I love how he listens to me, how he makes me jealous, the way he looks at me after we kiss. I love his eyes, his lips, and his hair. The way his warm smile makes my heart melt, i love when i hear his voice over the phone & i get butterflies in my tummy. I love his name, the way i can tell him anything, how we both get along so well. I love how we stay up late talking about nothing, i love how he calls me baby, the way he shows up in my dreams, the way his arm feels around me. I love how he gets shy when I'm around, the way he calls me beautiful.. I love how i can be myself with him, how he stays up late at night just to talk to me even though he has school the next day. I love how he makes me a better person, how he makes me feel like the most special girl in the world. I love when he reminds me he loves me, the way he bites my lip when were kissing. I love how i can trust him with anything, the way he is honest with me even when the truth might hurt me. I love the way he puts a smiley on every bbm he sends me..When he tells me that I'm his, the way he looks deep into my eyes. I love how he flirts with me, how he is always honest about what he wants, how he always manages to make me smile♥ I love how we both argue and fight over silly things, mostly because i get jealous. I love every mistake he makes, how he isn't perfect and the way he touches me. I love how we both wanna do it dirty, how he says he wants to loose his big V to me. But more than anything. I love Him...The morning I left, i held the phone in my hand, hoping he would call. Hoping he would ask me to stay for him. After waiting for a while, i realized he wasn't going to call. I grabbed my bags, and drove to the airport. I got on the plane with my heart aching, i wanted to get off and run into his arms. I sat there and watched the plane take off..I cried all the way back to Miami, i didn't want to come back. I wanted to stay behind, with him, forever♥.

This year, has been THE YEAR. An unlimited amount of guys, music, friends & pretty much everything there is out there ;) I am looking forward to this summer 100%. Filled with parties, friends, and maybe a new boyfriend? Who knows, im just gonna Have fun. And jamm to one of my favorite people in this whole world, im talking AFROJACK<3. I am addicted to his music, i listen to it 80% of my day. I dont know why, but ive been loosing control lately. With friends, with boys with EVERYTHING. This summer will be very wild! Tarzan style (; lmfaooo. AHHH i can just see it.. parties, dudesss & those nights that you cant rememeber the next morning. U-N-F-O-R-G-E-T-A-B-L-E. Call me some crazy ass, but right now im in that "carefree" mood, where i could care less what goes onn :P Yeeee budeeyyy! its all about the rebellion right now. Im sure my parents wont mind x) Lol Ive got my ways.. thats all im gonna say. HA.HA<3 Well, besides the sugar-rush ive been having and my body moving to the beat of House music, theres just more fun to commee. Lately, ive found myself dancing in my room with my ipod at 5 in the morning. Its the power of music <3. Dancing the worries away. Not caring. No crying. No sorrows, Dusces to all the bull shit. Though i still care about school & important things like my family. But at this point after being serious for a long time, its time to turn up the basee. Im sure i sound like some freak lol, but hey? Its up to us to make life fun. If not we end up all depressed for worthless reasons. My advice to all of you people out there who cry yourself to sleep, who want to change who you are, who are judged by your opinions or looks. Just DONT GIVE A FUCK. Tell all the haters jealousy and hatred are a disease, and send them a Get well soon card. Dont give a shit, about them, about peer-pressure. Find something that full-fills your life. That makes YOU happy, not your parents, not your friends but YOU. If you say, "oh you dont know what it feels like"JACKSHIT right there. I do know what it feels like, i have been bullied, i have cried myself to sleep, i have been rejected before and i have regreted some of the things that ive done in the past. But after weeks with nothing but crying I once realized. Im the one suffering, the haters are out there having a good time. Im the idiot dressed in PJ's on a Saturday night crying like a sorry ass. Crap like this happened to me around 6th grade. Now, you ask people about me. Or you ask if they know me? Most of there replies involve.. Michelle? The chick that always parties?, that doesnt give a fuck about people's opinion?, the one who twisted her life around in one day?  Oh yea, i know her. This year, i had the lady-balls to dance in the middle of my school with friends during lunch. Yea, some of you might of been embarrased if you did that. But no, i got up and moved my hips like never before. And yes, they did talk about me after. But not shit, but about how brave and care-less I am. I have one of those reputations in which they know that if you mess with me, i just wont give one flying fuck. Sorry, but thats the truth. I dont get pissed, i dont get sad. I just ignore them, put on my headfones and jamm bitch! Gotta go now, afrojack is calling. So forget the bullshit, drink it down and jammmm babeyy (; laterrr hoes.

Great Things Come unexpectedly :)

These last weeks of April, many things have happened. At first I began having these weird feelings... maybe loneliness? or i just needed a good friend. The thing is i was never lonely, and i had never felt that way before :/ Well, last weekend i had nothing to do "/ So i stated talking to my best friend Chris.. i was feeling HORRIBLE D: don't ask why, because not even i know. So we talked for hoursssss, until we decided to chill the next day (: We went to the mall.. we shopped and he bought me this really cute sweatshirt from Forever21 (My favorite store♥) We goofed around, we had lunch, we bought some sun glasses, shorts and to finish it Off, we went to the movies :P We watched that new "Madea" movie that's out. We laughed so hard! We were both crying because of too much laughing x) That weekend i also decided to stop  trying things with so many guys. Yea, they can call me a player i guess.. well, they already have. The deal is, i stopped talking to all the ones i was once interested in. I had committed to this for one day.. until this guy from my school began talking to me ^.^ So yeah, im currently talking to someone. I only spent ONE DAY with any flirting lmfaoo. I just cant resist this game ;] Ohh nd Thursday, was the "Take Your Child to Work Day", and instead of going to work with my mom, or staying home... i went to chill with some friends to school x) He was there. The guy that im talking too (: So we all chilled the enetire day <3 it was lots of fun. The thing is, hes kinda shy with me... well not that much, but still shy. Well, todayyyyy... was simply PERFECT. Besides it being friday, it was a jeans day...my clases were superrrr slack^.^ During lunch, they had our school's DJ mix! me and my friends were dancing to HOUSE music like crazyyy with many other people in school. Everyone was jumping, screaming.. hollaaa! lmfao (: Then i skipped my leadership class and i went off to 2nd lunch. It wasnt as wild as the first one but it was fun too. Later on, i went to my math class, which is cureently being held in the library.. and "HE" also had a class there. We were constantly looking at each other, our heads turning and our eyes going back and forth<33. I thought he didnt really like me, that he was only being a flirt.. since hes too shy. But today we were talking and he told a good friend of mine that he liked me ^.^ He also told me himself. OH, and he said "ILY" soooo i think things are going pretty well (; I know hes gonna ask me out soon.....as soon as were alone, he alredy told me he was going to do that:) It was great, today has been just PERFECT. My week completely changed, from me being lonely.. to beginning a new story.. with a new guy<33.

4. 21. 11 :)

This morning i woke up around 6:15, and my private bus picks me up at 6:20. I was in suchhh a russhh! i had to tie my shoes while i brushed my teeth lol xD i had to sprint down the stairs.. and i decided to do my make-up on the bus. I thought it was going to come out incredibly retarded! but it didn't.. it came out AMAZING! my eyes turned out to be breath taking <3. Ahhhhh im in suchhh a greattt mood!! i have no ideaa why thoughh lol. Despite the fact that i woke up late haha! but that was just a minor detail of my day :DD It all began this morninggg since my English teacher was absentt... we had a sub! ^.^ ohh and today was also a jeans day :) soo my day started off bad-ass. Later onnn my best-friend chris surprised me with this chocolate cookie since i was starvingggg! To make it better, this really cuteeee friend of his walked me to my science class ;) It was allll going greatt until i reached my P.E class >.< We just started a new sport, which i must say.. I HATE. Its flag football    -_________- i have never liked football.. i dont play it, i only date the ones who do (; lmfaooo. Sooo i started playing without a single idea of what to do. Turns out half of the game i was running the wrong way xD My team's captain hates me and my bestieee in that class. We would always talk and get distracted.. with just about ANYTHING, we completely ignored the game. That class was my own personal hell today. But whatever, i got through it Thank GOD!. As soon as i got out of P.E my dad was already waiting for me outside.. so i didn't have to wait at all :) I got homeee and my brother's nanny made Spaghetti! My favoriteee food <3 And to top it off.. Tomorrow there is no school yayyyyyyy ^.^ I don't know about you, but i think my day has been preetayy good so far :DD To end my day.. I'm going to relax in my PJ's while i watch movies and some funny-ass T.V shows <3 life is greatt and I'm loving it ^.^

Waiting for Mr. Right

Believing is a word with many meanings... you see you can believe in just ANYTHING. I believe in love, and in all the great things in this world. Some people believe in love at first sight.. i can say i sorta believe in it...One thing i know i believe in for sure, is myself. Though sometimes i have doubts on myself, and some people might me feel insecure, i am always sure of who i am. Today, i realized i had been waiting for this "Mr. right" for a while now, but then again.. i noticed you find things, when you stop looking for them. Ive met many guys, and to be honest, there is not one of them who i could ever love. Even if he is the most attractive man alive, i have never found someone who's personality fits with mine. Soooo.. in this case we wait. We wait for that right person to show up into our lives, to support us, to trust us, to love us. I know if u asked some people what do you look for in a guy/girl they would probably flip out this long-ass list of what they want. That's what makes my case different.. i don't necessarily have a type.. though i do like certain qualities in a person. I just wont look, they will come.. like LEGIT. Out of all of the guys that I've dated or been with.. i have never really pictured myself with them in the future, and that's why at this moment they are not with me. The right person always comes..you just have to be patient.. and most importantly be Yourself♥..

With crazy friends, you have crazy times (;♥

Well, today me and a couple of friends began to discuss our freshman year so far...Since its coming to an end in less than a month :DD this year has been I-N-C-R-E-D-I-B-L-E!. Whenever your in class, and everyone is reading quietly, and all of a sudden you hear two girls bursting in laughter, that's me and one of my best friends. We are like two hyenas watching a comedy XD. Yes, laughing is one of the things i enjoy doing, especially at school with all of my friends(: I can say freshman year has brought me tonss of new GREAT friends <3 I have done the stupidest things with them. All the way from coming up with dorkie songs, running under the rain..to going Trick or Treating around my neighborhood in the middle of NOVEMBER xD that day was unforgettable. We also ran after my mom's car in the middle of the street, people thought we were high lol (: anyways, this year was filled with hook-ups, field trips, baseball games ;) ahh life is awesome <3. Ohhh today..During my English class, me and my classmates were wild as hell. My teacher is like 80 and she can barely control half of the class. Shes extremely funny(looking). She has blue spots on her hair, it now looks purple and gray. Yup you read it right! that's some funky ass 80 year old. So i dared to ask her if she had dyed it in the past, she answered me by saying "its natural!" -_______- shes a terrible liar BTW. So your telling me, that you were just born with blue blotches on your hair! x) Oh God, to many freaks not enough circuses. My science teacher doesn't get any better! He is a retired 50 year old football-coach. So he thinks we are like his "football team" in a way. In the middle of class, he will randomly scream O.o it was funny at first, but once your sleeping in his class and you wake up to a screaming psycho, its not as funny. Moving onto my history teacher...He knows so much about history! He was probably there when Columbus discovered America. He is very old indeed, once he fell asleep in the middle of explaining an assignment lmfaoo. Half of our class left & skipped :) and when it comes to my P.E coach.. he was currently fired, since he was sued by some of the student's parents. Apparently he has been abusing them when it comes to their "physical workout". He would always tell my class how much he hated his 3rd period. Guess What? :P He made them bare-crawl across the track. You can just picture how fit we are ;) so as you can see I have many messed up teachers, but what can you do.. its Florida babyy! Gotta love it♥ I must admit i am going to miss my freshman year, it was the Bomb-Digiteyy! ^.^ But when it comes to sophomore year, ill make sure to keep it fun, I'm sure me and my friends can manage that one (; I have saved up all of the notes, drawings and stupid stuff that me & my friends have done during class this year. Whenever I'm bored i go through them & i start laughing all by myself :D haha and nobody would of expected for me to do such crazy stuff with my friends.. after all i just met them this year :)<3

First Day (:

Sooo today is my first day blogging :) I must say, i had NEVER thought about blogging before, but today my friend gave me a pretty good idea. I was in my Health Science class, bored as ALWAYS, so i started using my phone. You see, i have no service on it, since I'm grounded.... So much for having a blackberry -__________- i decided to randomly write on my memo pad. As i kept on writing my friend Leilah smiled and said it would be great if i started blogging. So here i am, blogging away for the first time♥ So far my day has been pretty interesting, despite the fact that i fell asleep in the middle of a math test xD my teacher decided to wake me up 5 minutes after the bell. Yes, i was the only one left in the class, but i honestly had a bad-ass nap ;) I also hurt my hand.. or as i said today its "jammed". My parents think its because of "excessive texting" as they would call it. I say that is the stupidest medical prediction ever. I am now wearing this sorta cast thing on my wrist, which looks terrible since i look like a grandma suffering from a serious case of carpal tunnel. Its 5:49 and i have a living loaddd of homework. But of course, I'm on the computer ^.^ Today i also had to watch this presentation for one of my classes. Turns out, i was the only one who watched it twice. Two of my teachers from completely different classes decided it would be a great way to start off our week. I sat for 3 hours watching the same lady say the exact same things, tell the exact same jokes -.- I. Wanted. To. Die. But overall this day was pretty decent compared to my other Mondays :P well, done for today! Ill keep on tmorow♥...